To alchemize the suffering that surrounds my experience of ambiguous loss into a healing visual field is the intention of this series. Through my meditative, process-based approach to composition, I seek to transmute the heavy energy (of sadness, fear, remorse, etc.) about Chelsea that I continuously carry in my heart. Materiality is critical here: I weave acrylics with sand and saltwater collected during my cold plunges and then collage in cyanotype, monotype, and remnants from my hand-press monoprinting process to mirror the dynamic layers of navigating this confounding situation..